May 12 2007
For Larissa
My heart is touched this week by a story that I found at this blog. It the the story of a young man and his family who are walking with their Savior through a difficult time of suffering. Almost 8 months ago a young man named Ian was in a car accident and suffered a brain injury. Though his family has brought him home, he has been in a coma since the accident. What many people don’t realize is that when a person is in a coma it doesn’t mean that they are on a ventilator and unconscious. They can seem very alert and you can expect that they are fully aware and seem like themselves even, but that is not always the case.
In the summer of 2001 I received a phone call from my brother saying that my other brother, Matt, had been in a car accident and had been helicoptered to a hospital. I immediately got in my car and went. They had my brother in a medically induced coma, on a ventilator, but I don’t remember the details of those first days.
He had a head injury and didn’t regain consciousness when they took him off the ventilator. As the days went by he eventually did wake up, but he really wasn’t there. He would just look around. Then came the feeding tube, which he was forever trying to remove. I would drive about an hour and a half to three times a week to see him. We would play music in his room and when we played a tape of bird songs he would turn his head toward the sound. I would hold his hand and and he would start jabbering at me almost like he was speaking in Martian or Russian. When I would try to speak gibberish back, he would laugh at me. I hated to leave when it was time to go.
Soon he was in a wheel chair and they took him to therapy. He had to learn how to talk, how to walk, and how to feed himself at 27 years of age. Matt was born when I was 14 and my mother went back to work so I was like a mother to him. After his accident he kept saying, “I want my Jen.”
Me and my brother, originally uploaded by jennifer.white.
About three weeks after the accident we thought he was out of the coma and his therapy began. But, three and a half weeks after that he changed and I realized that it was then that he really came out of the coma. We had done all of that therapy while he was still in the coma and comas are not what people think. He has about 5 months of his life prior to the accident that he cannot account for and his short term memory has been affected by the brain injury. We are just glad that the Father allowed him to stay here.
What did I learn through this? I learned that life has no guarantees. In the lonely hours of sitting and praying for my brother I just had to place him in the Father’s hands and trust that God knew what is best. I did not have a guarantee that God would heal him or take him home. But, I also learned that God is good and that whatever He does is good and that I can trust Him with whatever the outcome.
Now, Larissa, I am in awe of your love for Ian. You are showing the rest of the world how the church is to love Jesus by laying down your life for him. There is no greater love than that. One day, whether soon (and we pray for that) or after the resurrection, Ian and the Lord Jesus will look into your eyes and say, “Thank you, Larissa.” Because you have loved Ian in this way you have loved Jesus. Just keep seeing Jesus in Ian. He wants to walk through this with you. I am weeping for you. But, Jesus sees, He knows. He loves you and He loves Ian. This is not a mistake. Just trust Him.
“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you; but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing, so that also at the revelation of His glory you may rejoice with exultation.” I Peter 4:12-13
For His Name’s Sake,
jenny







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As a mother I have tried to educate my children in everything I think about life. I have also found that many times I was learning right along with them. When I didn't know the answer to something the most important thing for me to do was to point them to the One who did have all the answers. We have had to work through many tough issues together, but we have rejoiced in God's blessings to us. Now my children are nearly grown and my life has entered a new season. I have discovered that I have changed also. My blog is a place to express my thoughts and feelings about my God, my family, and about life through word and through photography. May my life bring honor to the Almighty.



